a moment ago i was slipping down, helpless, scratching every centimetre of my back, tree roots and small stones stuck in my shoulderblades…
and now it’s around 36 hours till i’ll enter the door of the house that we shall try to call “ours”.
every day i remember the way you were so painfully impossible when i first met you.
i dive quietly inside my soft belly i lie on the bottom of the ocean i come up with my mouth full of pearls and i scatter them again and watch them sink in the water.
i commit myself to the eternal gratitude.
i was waiting for you for thousands of lifetimes and i will wait for another couple of years or lives or however much it will take i will wait for you to be a part of you to rest inside you to grow inside you to feast inside you my host is you; and i will wait to let you in for you to rest firmly inside of me to nurture you inside me to be the earth and the air to be your water to be your fire to be everything for you to be everything with you…
because with you i am everything.